Australia Bans Small Breasts: →
On the one hand, I think this is hilarious, because it means my almost flat chest is literally obscene. On the other hand, it only rubs in the knowledge that people have referred to my breasts as “underdeveloped”, despite my body clearly being that of a post-pubescent woman. Way to go, though, take my confidence down another notch or twenty by suggesting that my chest would only...
This day, just a year ago, I thought I was walking towards a life and some structured future. I had a vague plan and that was a comfort. Now, today, my situation is like nothing I’d imagined. I need to learn to stop planning and to see everything as open, with no paths to follow and no one holding my hand. I’ll come to acknowledge that fuck-ups and missteps are not examples of regression. All the...
David Schoerner →
“the emotional qualities of the water”
Don Johnson, utter brilliance.
I hadn’t picked this hotel in particular, but I ended up in the same fancy joint we stayed in for my birthday. This time I was here with a friend who was grieving for her mother who died on Christmas day. It should put my loss into perspective and during daylight hours, I tried to be a decent friend and to just be there. My theory was that since I still associate five star hotels with a decadence...
I bought decadent new sheets for my bed. Black thousand thread count Egyptian cotton sheets and a red quilt set. It feels nice and not at all angst-ridden to curl up in black when I finish work for another night.
Maybe this is a response to all the things that have happened? I used to keep everything to myself but in the last five years or so I’ve changed. There’s no point in being reticent when I feel unsettled or upset and there’s also a substantial part of me that wants to be extraverted, even if I still clench my fists when I walk in to crowded rooms. I’ve tried so many things in this past year and...